Pain City
Tai Chi is having an effect on me that reaches far beyond the daily practice.
Last Sunday's lesson: spent the hour doing Needle Reaches To Sea Bottom. by the end of the class i could feel the stretch in the thigh muscle as i reached down. but that was not all. though i didn't notice it on the day, much more was being shifted.
on monday morning i woke in excruciating pain. my entire lower body and much of my right side was stiff, painful and swollen and i had a splitting headache.
i wasted no time in getting myself to an osteo - i was in too much discomfort to work. by the afternoon the headache had eased, mercifully. the ordeal was not over. the next morning i woke to find myself in worse strife. the pain had shifted. my upper body was loose and free, but lower back and hip so painful i was in tears.
could not bend over and getting dressed was difficult. not only that, but my nerves were shot. as i went to lift the juice bottle from the fridge that morning, 2/3 litre of apple juice and glass smashed itself onto the kitchen floor as the bottle slipped from my grip.
another trip to the osteo.
so for several days now i have been moving gingerly, with a feeling of tightness inthe abdominal and lower back region, much bloating and discomfort.
at an emotional level, many thoughts from early childhood have been arising. feelings of being alone in the world, and a recognition that i have no connections with children in my life.
this morning, the first moring i have felt ready to resume Tai Chi practice since sunday. and as i reach down in Needle Reaches To Sea Bottom, lo, the stretch in my lower back as i feel tears come to my eyes. not pain, but emotional release. this particular movement has opened something up in me.
Last Sunday's lesson: spent the hour doing Needle Reaches To Sea Bottom. by the end of the class i could feel the stretch in the thigh muscle as i reached down. but that was not all. though i didn't notice it on the day, much more was being shifted.
on monday morning i woke in excruciating pain. my entire lower body and much of my right side was stiff, painful and swollen and i had a splitting headache.
i wasted no time in getting myself to an osteo - i was in too much discomfort to work. by the afternoon the headache had eased, mercifully. the ordeal was not over. the next morning i woke to find myself in worse strife. the pain had shifted. my upper body was loose and free, but lower back and hip so painful i was in tears.
could not bend over and getting dressed was difficult. not only that, but my nerves were shot. as i went to lift the juice bottle from the fridge that morning, 2/3 litre of apple juice and glass smashed itself onto the kitchen floor as the bottle slipped from my grip.
another trip to the osteo.
so for several days now i have been moving gingerly, with a feeling of tightness inthe abdominal and lower back region, much bloating and discomfort.
at an emotional level, many thoughts from early childhood have been arising. feelings of being alone in the world, and a recognition that i have no connections with children in my life.
this morning, the first moring i have felt ready to resume Tai Chi practice since sunday. and as i reach down in Needle Reaches To Sea Bottom, lo, the stretch in my lower back as i feel tears come to my eyes. not pain, but emotional release. this particular movement has opened something up in me.
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